November 2010
1 post
September 2010
3 posts
add me? make this worth while for me. →
Cross the line if you wish you could be anorexic...
This is because anorexia is a disease - it has nothing to do with free will. Free will, is starving yourself. Anorexia, is a disorder where one feels compelled to, ultimately, not eat. It’s a mental ideal that takes over the body’s configuration’s.
August 2010
1 post
3 tags
Emmy Fail
I’m more than horrified and upset that Mariska didn’t win at the Emmy’s.
July 2010
1 post
so advice time: Say your friends gives you your credit card to buy a few items. You buy milk, pineapples, and a prepaid card for about $30.00 maximum. Your friend is now claiming identity theft. —Opinion (ask your parents, too) : What’s the end result? Civil claims? Jail? Probation? Judge Judy?
June 2010
2 posts
So long, Tumblr. →
I’m beginning to have a problem falling in love with single women.
May 2010
2 posts
You’ve given me this sparkle in my little eye. It’s kind of special. New hairs tomorrow? Quite excited.
Summer brings me back to you, Tumblr.
How is everyone’s life as of late?
April 2010
2 posts
I don’t speak the words I feel.
I prevent reality from creeping in on me.
I escape the plausible substance within my reach.
I fall to the desire to need this pleasing feeling within my veins.
March 2010
26 posts
I know how I feel - I just don’t think everyone else needs the burden of knowing.
it’s been a long time since I’ve been alive (on tumblr).
i’m scratching to break skin.
Goodbye Tumblr.
i randomly decided today i was going to quit smoking. it’s only been 3.5 hours. i’m ready for that fix.
In a huge fit of depression...
krismaryloves:
Cheer me up, loves.
Dude, you and me both. This bipolar disorder is kicking my ass, and at the worst time, too. Finals. Ready to just, leave the world behind. Why are we so vacant from the world? From each other, even more. We used to talk on a normal basis. I miss talking, but it makes living more difficult. You know what I mean? Like, waking up is one thing, but getting out of...
I hate love.
I think I found the end of the line.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
LIV IS A “MOM.”
Jesus, please let this end well.
Does anyone have the quote Huang said about how...
FamousFootWear
Needs my style — and I need their paycheck.
Job needed. Interview in line. Prayin’ like crazy.
In Class Nothing's
Sometimes, I’m looking in on my body hoping for the worst because nothing happening is really about me. I’m ready to set fire to myself- my only demon awaiting a verdict on what disease contains me. I no longer exist to me, but i’m seen in physicality. It’s as if I’ve broke from everything I’m seeing and looking through the eyes of an optimistic. Looking on the...
stick that in your pipe and smoke it: Fuck all you... →
George Carlin said: Fuck the children.
Afuckingmen.
Aren’t you fucking sick and tired of whining the fuck about your stupid sorry pathetic lives just because Mummy refuses to increase your weekly allowance and Daddy doesn’t let you get a new pair of Vans. You fucking kvetch on and on and fucking…
You know, if someone were to kill themselves based on your post, you could be held...
"call me when you're sober"
but really, i only love being open and honest when it’s platonic and not about me.
Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder: me time →
i took a day off from worrying about everything, particularly my lack of job situation, today. and it felt so good. i don’t know the last time i just took time for me. i slept in (unintentionally) and then went to an amazing meeting. then i just hung out watching tv with a couple of my roommates…
I love days to myself. Sometimes, it’s the only thing that reminds you you’re...
here's to the nights we felt alive here's to the... →
theredemptionofhope:
Here’s To The Nights —-Eve 6 Sooo friggin’ frustrated with myself right now. I got through the morning, but couldn’t seem to stay awake after 1pm, so I made the decision to take a nap from 2-4;…
I know how you feel, girl. I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. I still can’t tell if this is because I’m in a depressive state or if I’m in hypomania....
I kind of feel like the more I’m alive, the more I’m dying. And, literally, I am as far as the tiring of my heart and aging process goes. But, emotionally… I’m giving in to all things I once stood for. I’m tired of fighting my old battles that created a sense of, ease in my life. I think really it’s just a depressive state since I’ve already been through...
“God if you can hear me, crash this train.”
The empowerment of living is catching up to my desire to jump “into the ocean, end it all.” But something about buying a ticket for a cruise ship and then jumping overboard into freezing cold water seems like a bad idea. Not to mention, drowning to death. Not so appealing. But it would be so much better to understand what Justin felt when he jumped.
Just For Today →
Really excited to share daily meditations on Tumblr. Great day.
Bear: I got out of bed. I am sitting at the... →
I got out of bed. I am sitting at the kitchen table, listening to the seconds tic by on the clock over my head, drinking black coffee. I feel so strange. I am happy, really and truly… but I am on the verge of tears. I have so much hope for my life now and I look forward to waking up in the…
Nothing better than living and dying all at once, huh? Well, there’s leaving the past...
Today is two months sobriety. I’m still not sure how I feel about it. Good, I guess.
Pandora is playing some song called “Decade Under the Influence”… Interesting that it’s being a mind reader.
Tired, tired eyes.
2 months.
A Writer's Ruminations: Moments →
I’m finding that it’s not always the deep and profound conversations that mean the most to you. Sometimes it’s talking about a singer or a writer, or reading a little note, or having a silly chat. It is a number of things put together that constitute living, not one grand thing by itself. It’s…
I agree entirely. It’s definitely every day events that make up life. “525,600...
February 2010
48 posts
In other sporting news, the Boston Celtics lost to...
inothernews:
Even us Celtics fans have to laugh at it.
About time my boys did something right. ;)
Desk Arrest? →
I just can’t help but be ashamed by what has come down to our safety and our rights.
The webcam situation alarms me the most. These children could have EASILY been seen getting dressed or doing intimate acts. And the fact that they students are no longer on school grounds means you cannot track their activities. It’s such a violation of privacy - it absolutely sickens me that...
5 FIRE ALARMS IN 24 HOURS IS A LITTLE RIDICULOUS.
Especially when there’s been at least 2 known at other dorms.
Stop being prickish douche bags and find something better to do than risk the firefighters’ lives and everyone else’s sanity.
1 tag
People.
kaitlinrosecrisler:
Are complex, and confuse me. However, that’s what makes them so intriguing to me. It’s not just a want to know more it’s a need. To figure out what’s going on in everyone’s head.
Maybe I’m just nosy.
Maybe it’s for a selfish reason.
So I can bail before I get hurt.
I’m normally fairly good at reading people, knowing their intentions, but some slip by the radar, and that’s...
“Back, back, back. How fucking far back do you go? My mom and dad were divorced...”
– Prozac Nation (via lostinthesounds)
I just watched this movie and fell in love. I wrote a response called Effexor Nation.
i’m ready to break plans with my insides. it’s better LIVING than lying.
but honestly, i’m lying.
Effexor Nation?
I’m watching Prozac Nation and it’s making me realize what I feel everyday in my life. The fear of therapy, the fear of waking up, or sleeping. The fear or writing too much or never writing again. The fear of everyday living - like, the fear of waking up is bigger than actually getting out of bed. I think nothing is better and nothing is worse than trying to get through today and see...